This is my story...

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

What is wrong with online blogging nowadays? Three people got charged for racism remarks, secondary school student got caned in front of the whole school for tarnishing a teacher's reputation and spurring vulgarities at him online. Online thoughts got involved in crimes and offences in the present?

Well racism remarks. Come on. Let us stop denying that there will never ever be such thing as "equality" in this world. As a result groups of people often look down on other groups and unpleasent remarks are exchanged in the process. Our society is trying to improve such circumstances by organising functions and commemorations such as racial harmony day and all that. I mean, well it is a well thought move by our leaders and I must not deny that most of us live in harmony throught the years. However by totally minimising and eventually eradicating it is impossible. Get down to earth and face this sad truth: Prejudice and discrimination will exist as long as the human civilisation lasts. Perhaps what we can do is try to tolerate the crap. Yeah. One man's meat is another's poison. You may not like the way others do but they still have to do it, and vice versa. Sometimes we are so used to see such "negative" actions dones by a particular group of people that we associate such actions with them. This is prejudice. Unless the human race is equal, with everyone believing the same thing, having the same things, such thing WILL always exist.

Rambled by kaSh at 10:24 pm

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Oh, if anyone has the time, just look out of the window and glance at the sky. It will be either stormed with dark, ominous clouds or just a bright blue sky hanging there. Stupid weather. Wanna rain or shine also cannot decide. Sometimes come at irregular times such as when you are walking on an open area and it rain suddenly. Crap.

Sometimes you have too many shiet stucked in your mind, heart, body, hands, legs or wherever until you go crazy till a point of time whereby you think you are normal and usual like everyone else. Then you will feel somewhat there is nothing bothering you and you think you rule the world.

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. If anyone has the money or time to buy and watch this movie produced by Squarenix, please do not hesitate to get it. You will regret if you don't. Trust me.

Anyways my words are of crap lah. No one listens to it anyways.

I still have a small hole in my ear. It affects my hearing and all. Too bad. If I am persistantly asking for repeats, please do not blame me, I am like that, I am partial deaf or whatever you wanna say. I am disabled.

I still can run, talk, walk, slap, fight and shoot you in the ass.

Rambled by kaSh at 2:01 am

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Is there any maximum characters which I can write in an entry now? I was so pissed when I could not publish posts with long characters and I could with a only a few words. So now even blogger wants to make fun of me. Thank you.

Rambled by kaSh at 12:39 am

Things which I have learnt in the army, which apply in a perplex society we live in. (Do take a look).
- First off, no matter what you do, ranging from helping others to accomplish tasks, giving a simple speech, talking casually with friends, standing motionlessly dazing at the sky, or something which salvages the world (killing villians), there will be someone out there who thinks that you are an asshole/fuckwit/dumbshiet/lifeless/crap. Trust me, this is the society, you can never please everyone in your life, so do what is right; satisfy the majority.
- No matter how saint you are, how much you have learnt from your efficacious philosophies, there will at least be someone who you hate him for everything he does. The world works like this, no one in this world is able to work along with everyone else in this world, and ironically the best partners are between people who hate one another.
- The world functions in a way such that everything is relative to another. How do you define something good when there is nothing evil? Thus over the past ten thousand years human beings have evolved to do something "good" for the society, something pleasent which they feel it in their hearts and souls, for instance, giving a helping hand to the disabled, or salvage the world like Superman.
- Which leads to another of my point, how do you define "good" or actions which are "acceptable" and "appropriate"? Not everyone will appreciate what you have done, and thus you will not be deemed "good" or all the other positive comments by him/her/it/them. For instance, terrorists running around killing innocent people. The world is shaped in such a way that their actions should be condemn and they should burn in hell for the rest of eternity. How about the others who supported their actions? These people see terrorists as their "heroes", their savours and sages whereas the rest of the world belittle and criticize their actions.
- Back to the saint work of mine. Whenver you are out to hate or deprecate one particular poor soul, think about what he has done first. If he is liked by others and hated by you only, chances are you are having some social problems, or he has the power to control things around him. If he is reprobated by the others as well, then indeed the problem lies with him (this is just an assumption, not a sweeping statement). There are infinate causes which led a particular being to behave in such an extent that everyone around him/her/it loathes.
-- to feel important. Often murderers committed crime, lacked of attention. They need attention and they turned into vicious actions such as serial kills. They get their public attention and through that, they feel important. Some others attract these attention by of a good cause, to get recognition through the media, becoming rich and famous. Some others do things a different way which normal human beings are not used to it. As a result they are hated, condemned and squeezed.
-- they care only for themselves. Everyone loves themselves. Who doesn't? The first thing you look for in a group photo is yourself, scrutinising how you looked like, what you should have worn and how you should have stood to make yourself more significant than the others around you. Human trait, it's all in the sub-conscious mind.
And some other causes.
The society sets a trend which everyone must follow unconsciously. That is understood. Few who do not comply such trends will be left behind. Trends may range from good to evil, however most of them are out to get the better of us, somehow or rather we are left to run what the society tells us to.
The world is indeed a happy place to live on, it is all the manupulation of the mind which most of us have done it through the psychological influences our parents have brought to us, making us understand that the world works in this way and not the way we want it to be.
Fairy tales do not exist. Trust me. Even if it does it will only be a short period of time.
And I have not been blogging for such a long time. I know this post sounds crap. No one reads it too. And blogging has been a politcal issue about racisms and all that crap which are sensitive to the society, most of them are being arrested just because they said things which are in their point of view, how they feel, and others feel that they are "wrong".
Welcome to the real world.

Rambled by kaSh at 12:36 am

Sunday, September 18, 2005

I just wrote a post which was deleted. Fuck.

Rambled by kaSh at 4:06 pm

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

At least the tides have turned a little for now. I am recovering; I can hear clearer now, no more severe blocks and sharp, irritating pains which occur frequently and all.

Maybe it is time to move on to reality after so much of fantasy and dreaming for the past 19 years of my life. The reason why I did not do what I suppose to these few month is because I am still indulge in my wonderful world of fairy tales and all that, in the process trying to heal myself with all the crap I have suffered in torment in the past.

Oh, everyone thinks that I talk rubbish half the time. And when I speak the truth, no one believes. Oh well. This is natural. All my general facts and figures have turned into worthless crap.

Maybe the reaons are I am so irritating that you do not feel like hearing me whine anymore, or something like that. Maybe I am persistent to some crap (Oh I am not), or maybe I did not do anything to show how much I appreciated you in my life, or maybe I just talk too much of crap about my army and my sad sad life and stuff and all.

Haiz. Sometimes I wonder if I need a psychologist or a psychiatrist to consult to, to listen to ALL my crap so that I will feel better, telling them the problems which I faced, and give me some medicine to put me into deep sleep and either 1) never wake up or 2) wake up without recalling any shiet.

I need a new direction in life. My roads are either blocked or under severe construction, or some beyond the repair of a normal being.

Kinda sad. This is the only place which I can just whine my sorrows out, to let the whole internet know how I feel without me evening knowing who the hell knows, and who the hell cares. If anyone is pissed reading my crap and stuff of all these, please kindly, leave.

More than half of the people who read this do not give a tiny fuck about it. It's ok. I am starting to get used to be neglected and placed aside already. In no time I will be someone who doesn't give a shiet about the world and vice versa. How nice?

Shoot me, anyone.

Rambled by kaSh at 8:29 pm