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About Me Name: Alvin Age: 20 School: none Education: none
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I miss the times where I could walk through the park and under the apartment blocks, taking a 20min walk where normal lifeforms would take 10, heading towards school, entering it with a lethargic sensation, thinking that it would be a really really bad day ahead. I miss the times where I sat in class, eating and snoring away while the lessons were going, at the front desk there used to be a water bottle and a stack of assignment and reference notes left by the tutor while she was teaching, pointing people up to solve mysterious and difficult questions on the whiteboad. Then she caught me when I was sleeping, I had no choice but to get up and continued my life. I miss the times where I sat in the lecture hall, chatting with my friends from other class all day long, subjects which were irrelevant to that was going on. Then I would walk out of the hall without permission, seeked grace from the toilet, loitered around the canteen hunting for food, then headed back to the hall realising everyone was packing their bags for the next lesson. I miss the times where during free periods, I changed to my PE attire with my beloved racket, headed down to the all for a badminton session with my friends. Time flew fast during that period, nevertheless we did not care about anything but just to enjoy our game. Then PE lessons came by, we walked around the track for a few rounds, praying that we would not get caught, the resume our shuttlecock game. I miss the times where during free periods, I immediately thought of a comfortable resting place of paradise: the library. I would sleep through the periods, or chatting with my friends loudly, overturning the whole place and almost got banned for it. Then when it comes to serious work, I went around disturbing and taking away their stationery, running around like it was my playground. I miss the times where during examinations, the stressed faces I see around me, the anxiety amoung the students while I felt so calm. The library was packed, quieter than ever, people endulging their rest of the day into worthless scams of Math and Science, in the end all they battled against was just a stack of A4 paper with several writings and notions negligible to most of us, and at the end of the examination we prayed hard to scrap through the entire system of death. I miss the times where I could play the whole afternoon after school, for every activity group it would be, it would be badminton. Ironically I played other sports during training. Then we were called back and got exposed. And I got a severe scolding because the leader took the heaviest responsilibity, and nevertheless we did everything again after that moment of lecture. I miss the times where I could sing and play the guitar at almost everywhere of the school, and the most memorable times were the times we formed a band for a contest, and emerged as champions. I was the rhythmic guitarist, the back singer, and we did really well, I was so proud of it. And the small group which went into the audtion half a hour after picking up a song, forming the singers and strummers, and got into the finals. Although my focus was on the band and not the group, I felt a great sense of achievement, with the song "Year 3000". Then we took a photo with Dennis Keller, and we wanted to jam more than ever before, the next time I would be on the drums... I missed the times where on the very one and only night the whole school was really glamarious, my class was dressed in a formal fashion way which I could not recognise anyone of them. And my date was the perfect lady I could have ever wanted, and the times we spent through the night was the most commemorating one, the things which we done as I felt as a truely couple, after a long time of struggle and fights. And the prom game was fun, the photo taking was indeed the nicest thing ever, the food just taste a little funny, and no one danced on the dance floor. I wanted to with my eloquent lady, but we had better things to do... If there is one wish I could ever wish for now, I wish to be seventeen again, and remain there as it is, the class, the school, the ambience, the activities we do, the things with watch and play, the rumbles and scrumbles we gave the teachers, the skipping of classes we had done. I miss the times.. I miss the times.. I miss the days when I was seventeen again... Rambled by kaSh at 3:04 am It's amazing how much it is for people who barely know you, to celebrate and sing a birthday song for you. This is the first birthday of my life that friends who I considered that I am not really close to celebrated my birthday with me. I mean, the people who I am really close to of course celebrated with me too, but my guild members, who I only meet them for the second time, bought a birthday cake for me! This is really really touching. I cannot explain how much it really meant to me at that point of time. Somehow or rather I felt I am myself again. I don't know, but from the bottom of my heart I am really really touched by these minute and simple actions they have done for me. And the badminton girls too. Some of them never even see me once in their life and yet they were up to sing a birthday song to me. I am so touched, so so touched... At those point of times I realise that the best things in the world cannot be bought. It is priceless. The thoughts of these people doing things just because they appreciate you really just pleased me so much, telling me that there is actually something unexplanable which exists in this world. I do not know what is that, but the feeling of joy in my heart which these people brought to me is simple priceless. From the bottom of my heart, I really thank you for putting such effort just to commemorate my birthday. I really really really appreciate it. And to those people who wished me a simple and sweet "Happy Birthday" to me, I really appreciate them alot. No one knows how much those mean to me. And for those who personally called me to wish me, to those really put their busy schedule on hold for a good five minutes just to pick up the phone to call me to wish me, I really appreciate it. And for those who called and wanted to call and sang a birthday song to me, I love you guys. Happy birthday to me. I am officially twenty. It is time to behave like one. Rambled by kaSh at 7:43 pm Happy birthday to me. I am finally 20. I feel so old. And I had fun on my birthday. Luckily I didn't get drunk. Sweet old twenty I am coming. Rambled by kaSh at 9:36 am Oh I finally found out what is the exact problem for unable to post long entries. It's just my computer; the stupid cache cookie thing. =( Anyways I had Billy Bombers sometime back and yesterday, I must say that it got suckier everytime I went to eat. The chicken tasted normal, the fish tasted normal, the fries were normal... I mean, 50 bucks spent on such food without any quality? Oh my... There isn't anything for me to blog about. Life is as usual, boring. At least I get to see my juniors on the way to work/camp. They brighten up my life a little. Just keep on raining until the end of the days. Rambled by kaSh at 8:26 pm Sometimes I wonder if it is a cause triggers a series of events to happen, things which are bad (or good) happened or felt after a general negative (or positive) emotions sets in. Oh well. It seems like I don't really have any good days to hope for this month. Then again Janaury should be one of the joyest month of the year, due to CNY and my birthday, but oh well things do really change with time... And all I could think of is just to get things done quickly, although I am REALLY lazy to do it, it is my job ultimately and I am tasked to complete it, at least I did my work before going out to "play", and I hate people giving me that pathetic look, thinking that I am slacking my life away. At least I was some help in one or another way, at least I made someone's life alot easier... The thing is I do not have the time and laziness dominate me time and again, ceasing me from updating my blog. Anyways I do not have much things to do talk about, typical army life and all, and some general comments on people who I met in and out of camp, in and out of game and around me. There is always a general trend among Singaporeans if I must say, is that we never want to admit our lost. We want to be superior, in an extreme competitive manner, ie snatching things which we want unwanting to give a gimpse on others, and of course, the haughtiness tone of us does not seem to fade away anytime sooner, and we pretend to be a know-all. All the time I think of what am I suppose to do in the future, the endless struggle with my personality now, ultimately leads to the reason of "why". I guess it's because of her, again. Someone who I'll never be able to hold onto again. But why her? Some questions are often left unanswered, never to be touched and even if it does, the answer seems to come directly from the heart, which then again will chain back to the beginning of all questions. I don't know, it must be the alcohol... Rambled by kaSh at 11:29 pm OMG I didnt update for like 3 weeks already. Anyways it's a new year so yeah, I am hoping for some revalations and changes to myself, and at the same time well, getting things done faster, and be more efficient in the things I do and.. well yeah. Ok let's recall. I remember I felt so sick that I vomitted. Ok it's not the alcohol. It's something else. And it sucked. Vomitting sucks. And yeah during new year I went to Cartel, then ECP then PS to have lotsa fun eating and drinking with friends. I mean that is the only time which I can meet up apart from work because work sucks as per normal. I am promoted. But no one gives a shiet anyways everyone is a friend to everyone there so who cares about rank. And well I don't really have much things to write... Oh I need to shop for new year clothes and it really sucked. Tomorrow is my chinese birthday and I don't really see anything special and significnat about it. And yeah this year my birthday will be, I think, a dull one, again, like Christmas because I am too lazy to organize any functions and all. Please forgive me. No need for any presents. I am more than happy on people wishing me already. :p This is getting bored... Rambled by kaSh at 11:19 pm |
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