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About Me Name: Alvin Age: 20 School: none Education: none
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Finally something good. Nothing much to say, I feel like blogging, but I do not know what and how to say. All I can say is just, I <3 you. Yes I do. Rambled by kaSh at 12:44 am I swear I will never get so drunk that I did not know what the hell happened in the night ever again. Rambled by kaSh at 12:58 pm My Saturday nights are just too wonderful to be true.. Rambled by kaSh at 1:51 pm So here comes my ear infection again despite the earlier operation I had, and yes, the blocked ear, the extensive flow of fluid out from it, the constant itch in my throat... how irritating could those be? Of course I pray hard to get well again, not to mention another of my back problem comes by, whereby straining it alone isn't enough but indeed some nerve went to place itself the wrong way. Just mere 5 minutes of keep still standing is a pain in the ass for me, not to mention sitting down without a back support. And forgo those gym sessions, especially with my left hand, because he advised me not to carry weights, for a long period of time. So I suppose when I was just about to get back my regime, some crap happened to myself and prevented me from doing all these things, which of course will prolong my lifespan. Then of course, my motivation is back, nonetheless the urge to lazy around still dwells upon me. Am I too engrossed to things to such a certain extent that I do not realise that I am at all? Some times it is, because things will eventually be normal to you when you do abnormal things frequently, or rather, repetitive unusual, boring stuff which you repeat all night long. Oh, I realise I do not have much fun this few months, due to the busy schedule in camp (as usual, or is it a delusion?) though I have been lazing around defying every single thing that is placed upon me. Studying still rocks more than anything else; no worries, no responsibilities, no qualms, oh stress, the temporal stress beats the eternal ones your boss give you every other day for the next 20 years of your life. Quite screwed up eh? And they say I blog sad things here. Indeed. Too much until I do not know when to start already. So sad. Perhaps someone can save me out from the eternal darkness, again? Please? No use begging already. Rambled by kaSh at 12:21 am $36.50. Most expensive cab fare I've ever paid. Rambled by kaSh at 6:39 am Oh, what full of surprises the night was. Breaking down of escalators wherever we go, counting of people walking passed us, and yes... the movie... And the sunrise, it was beautiful. And the ambiance, it was peaceful, serene, tranquil. How I wished time stopped there, just for me to enjoy the beauties of nature, to sit down quietly, to forgo all worries... Thank you for the wonderful night of dreams. Rambled by kaSh at 7:09 pm No, I ain't ok. No, I couldn't feel any better than this. No, I can't forget things so easily. Yes, I do seem like nothing has happened. Yes, I do not like to say it out. Yes, my heart is still damn broken. Who knows? Who cares? Rambled by kaSh at 9:07 pm Forget it. I shouldn't be doing all this. No point, no outcome, no conclusion. Just a thought, making another person hating me isn't my bloody intention at all. All I can do is choose not to care, and move on. Yeah, like I always, do... choose not to care. And no, I don't hate you at all. You know it. You know I love you. You know I've loved you. And of course, not clinging onto someone you love, instead letting her go, is the most difficult, most screwed up, stupidest things to do, because you just have to do it, you do not have the choice. And I choose to do so. It will be better off for you, as usual, for you always... Rambled by kaSh at 11:10 pm You know hurt, how disappointed, how angry, how heartbroken was I? No, you didn't know. Sorry is not something which could solve such things. Too late? It was never too late. It is your decision, your choice, but you choose to end it. Have I expected anything out of you? You wanna know me? Yes you can. You can read all my previous posts about my past. Everything is here because everything is sad. Everything here has no life, no nothing. That was the reason why I didn't wanna tell you straight in the face. I hate it. I hate sadness. And? Time is everything we have. Two weeks. It was just two weeks. What has happened? Something changed? What could have change so fast, so rapid? This is ridiculous. And the replies I got, how furious was I when I read them. What? two-timing me? Wtf was that? Ok. I quit arguing. I hate to argue, especially with the people I love. I do not want to see us ending up without solving anything. So I choose to give in, everything. You said this, I agreed. You said that, I agreed. I am compromising alot. Not affectionate enough? Maybe you are not sensitive enough. Yeah. I did this out of rage. I did not want to be the bad guy, but I realised that I have been the good guy for too long. To avoid arguements, to give in, to shut up when I think something was wrong, to agree anything which is wrong and so on. I just wanna forgive myself for not sleeping well, for not talking to anyone in camp, for punching the stupid walls for all my stupidity, all my dumb things which I have done. Yes I am stupid. I think I am the dumbest fucker in the world. Rambled by kaSh at 12:19 am |
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